Friday, September 6, 2013

My Best Days...and how I find them.

On my BEST days:
I lead a truly inspired life
Everywhere I look I find inspiring words and deeds.
Positive thoughts and ideas circle in my head
at a pace that I cannot, would not stop.
I find encouragement in interactions with family and friends.
I breathe in the music, prose, and poetry that is omnipresent.
I look for ways to encourage others.
My prayers are filled with concerns for people other than myself.
The hot and cold air feel better, not in comfort, but in thanksgiving
The hugs from my wife and kids are energizing.
My patience is such that no wait is too long and no inconvenience seems to matter.
I exude a positive energy that is contagious to everyone I come into contact with
and I am constantly re-energized by the smiling faces I create.


 On ALL of my other days:
I awake to find an imperfect world and it bothers me.
I spend time dragging around problems from years gone by
and from generations past.
My focus is on all that is wrong with my day, my life, my world.
I tend to see the negatives in the people and places I encounter.
I am unimpressed by my life's successes and blessings.
I am unable to focus beyond myself, my wants, my needs,
and my complaints about what this world is not giving me.
I look beyond the smiling, loving people I encounter
to focus on the one grumpy, grouchy person that feeds my down mood.
I do and say whatever comes to my mind,
without regard to the struggles or plight of my fellowman.

BEST days are hidden inside ALL days and it just takes a moment of prayer,
reflection, or grace to find them. I am looking for more BEST days and today I found ONE
and shared it with my family!


Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Love Conquers


      I once believed that I really didn’t care if I lived or died

      Then one day I faced the thought of living without you and I saw what death would really be like

      Now I realize, I never wanted that. I always wanted you, but my fear was larger than my courage

 

     There was once a time when I would let days go by without saying I love you

     Inside, I feared having you know that you were my sun, because I was afraid you might turn off my light

     Then one day it was pitch black and you helped me survive in the dark

     Now I have no fear of you knowing you are my sun, I just want you to shine brightly

 

     There was a time when I feared your touch

     I literally saw it as a potential addiction that would overwhelm me

     Now that I am fully addicted, I know that not all addictions are bad

     I thank God for my addiction and I pray that we might be blessed with a long life together

 

     There were days when I stayed in my room and festered over things

     Things I wanted to change and things I had hoped would be different for us both

     Fighting an unspoken battle, with you unaware

     Then an explosion went off and when I came to, you were there comforting me

     Even in your own brokenness, you helped me with your love

 

    Today I thank God for the individual you are

    Beautiful beyond your own recognition or my imagination

    Waiting for my words of affirmation, fearing my condemnation

 

   Today I boldly say, you were my gift from that first day, 8.15.1994

   Long before a call, or date, or even a kind word was passed

   A gift I prayed for, but then feared I was not qualified to have

 

  I tore you down to satisfy my own insecurity. That was not God’s desire for you or me

  I now know that it is okay to build you up and have you tower over me

  Beautiful for the world to see, what I tried to hide inside of me

  Having allowed me to see beyond my confusion…and find greater love